Monday, December 22, 2008

Disappointment Turned into Prayer...

I am having a rough day today. As you can see, it is 6:00 a.m. on my FIRST day off on Christmas Vacation. So why am I wide awake and writing a post on my blog? My plan for a Christmas surprise for my family ended this morning when my stomach started cramping at 5:30 this morning. You know the rest...no need for details :(

So here I sit trying to sort out my feelings....my first thought? DISAPPOINTMENT!!

Disappointment...the feeling of dissatisfaction that follows the failure of expectations to manifest.

The word disappointment is made up of DIS and APPOINTMENT. DIS means separate, apart, or asunder. So, disappointment describes a feeling of dissatisfaction or anguish, which is experienced when we are torn apart from our expected appointment with fate. Yet, we don't have to experience pain when things don't go our way.

The negativity surrounding disappointment exists not in the real world, but only in our mind. It is not the event, but our interpretation of it that causes pain.

Now this last definition caused me to think for while....the interpretation of the disappointment is what causes pain, not the event itself. So what did I do next? I prayed...


Psalm 31:2-5
Turn your ear toward me. Rescue me quickly. Be a rock of refuge for me, a strong fortress to save me. Indeed, you are my rock and my fortress. For the sake of your name, lead me and guide me. You are my refuge, so pull me out of the net that they have secretly laid for me. Into your hands I entrust my spirit. You have rescued me, O LORD, God of truth.

It still isn't the right time...only He knows when.

14 comments:

Amanda said...

I am so sorry. I am praying for you a little extra today!

Krysta said...

I'm so sorry Lianna. I'm praying for you everyday!!!!

Kristy said...

I am SO sorry... that made me just want to cry for you. I'm praying...

Kim said...

Lianna, I found your blog through my friend Kristy. I just wanted to tell you that I say a pray daily for all of the women on Kelly's prayer blog. I usually don't know what to say to woman about this subject, bc my husband and I have only been trying for 5 months, but this month was the hardest for me. Like you, I so wanted to surprise my parents on Christmas with great news. Thanks to some encouraging words from Kelly, I feel more at peace about it. I pray for you every day, along with all of the other women on that special list. Prayers and Blessings,
Kim

Mojito Maven said...

I am so sorry!!!!!!!!!!! I am still praying though!!

Heather said...

Lianna- My heart just aches for you because I know EXACTLY how you feel. The exact thing happened to me last Thanksgiving AND Christmas...two late periods with hopes dashed. I remember it so clearly and just want you to know I have spent time praying for you and will continue. God is going to bless you with your miracle. I know He will. Pamper yourself with whatever you want (or whatever you don't!) today...I remember so many days of just laying around watching TV cause I didn't want to see or talk to anyone. My hubby always brought me some really good take-out or ice cream or something, too. Just some little "treats". I love you friend and am praying God totally just meets you where you are today.

zentmrs said...

So sorry... you are in our prayers...

Stuart and Sarah Creamer said...

Praying for you! In His time. I know that is all I can say and that is all that can comfort. When God is ready, it will happen!

Kelly said...

OH I'm so sorry.........I'm like Heather - pamper yourself today. I'm glad you are off. Eat Ice cream. Watch sad movies. Dwell in a little sadness. But know we are praying for you so hard and I know you will be blessed soon! You are going to make a great mom - and have the CUTEST baby!!!

Faith said...

I'm so sorry Lianna. This is so hard and so frustrating. I'm continuing to pray for you...

Emily said...

I am so sorry. For you and your husband, I will pray- May you find some joy this Christmas-
Emily (a blog stalker)

Kendra said...

Oh Lianna, I am so sorry...just so sorry. One thing that amazes me so much about you is your ability to HOPE. You always seem so hopeful, and it inspires me!! So today I am praying God fills you with HOPE again sweet friend.
I can't help but think of what Kelly and Heather have both posted about recently...what a difference a year can make. I myself have been SO encouraged by that thought.
I am praying right now that this time next year you have a sweet miracle baby in your arms!!!
Blessings to you =-)

Mary said...

My heart is breaking for you!!! I am continuing to pray for you!!

Jennifer said...

lianna~i'm so sorry. i continue to pray for you everyday.