Sunday, November 29, 2009
The Golden Ticket.
There is absolutely nothing more in this world that Charlie desires more than to receive a golden ticket.
There is absolutely nothing more in this world that we desire more than to have a baby.
As little Charlie receives a Wonka Bar for his birthday, he slowly begins to open it. Hoping to find that beautiful golden ticket under the wrapper. He opens the candy bar ever so slowly and then finally rips the last piece of paper off of the candy to reveal...no golden ticket.
We anticipate the day each month when it is time to take a pregnancy test. To reveal...no pregnancy.
Charlie watches in anticipation as one by one, the golden tickets are being discovered.
We watch in anticipation as one by one, our friends and family receive their baby miracles.
Although Charlie and his family have absolutely no money, his grandfather gives him his last coin to purchase another Wonka Bar. The anxiety reaches an all time high as Charlie and his grandfather open the candy bar. Unfortunately, Charlie's excitement comes crumbling down as yet again, their is no golden ticket to be found.
We use all of our extra money on either fertility medications or for the adoption process. After each stressful attempt, our excitement comes crumbling down as yet again, we are still not parents.
Charlie was walking home from school and as fate would have it, he comes across a $10 bill in the snow. He ran immediately to a candy store and used the money to purchase another Wonka Bar. Against all the odds, Charlie stares in amazement at the shiney golden ticket he finds inside the candy bar.
We pray every day that God will grant us our miracle of a baby.
I told you...Charlie and the Chocolate Factory is VERY similar to infertility.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
The DH with his golfing Santa PJ's.
Dad with his Christmas penguins PJ's.
This was in 2006...can you believe how little Kodi was??? He has a little baby face :)
This was in 2007...I thought this pic turned out cool with his little Santa hat on! This was last year.
Last but not least, we enjoy riding around town on Christmas Eve looking at Christmas lights. Sometimes we'll ride in my parents golfcart and other times we've just piled into the back of Dad's truck.
Overall, I think Christmas is a time to love, make memories, and enjoy being a family.
If you'd like to see more Christmas Traditions, go and visit all the posts on Kelly's Korner!
Friday, November 27, 2009
Please come back on December 10th to see more of my Christmas door and to share pics of YOUR door! If you plan on participating, snag the Christmas Door Tour button and post it on your blog!
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
This is a quote from the site...
"Our lives often seem incomplete. We want something very much, and we don't seem to be able to be content without it. Some times this lack of contentment is what the Bible calls covetousness--wanting something other than what God has ordained for us. Some times, however, God is giving us a desire for something in His will, and even though we have the desire, God has not yet given us what He wants to give us."
I was taken aback by the use of the word covet. I have always been taught that the word covet was negative. I mean, it is written in one of the 10 Commandments...Thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's house, thou shalt not covet thy neighbor's wife...so I thought I should read more into what to covet means.
The dictionary describes covetous as inordinately or wrongly desirous of wealth or possessions; greedy.
The Bible dictionary describes covetousness as a strong desire after the possession of worldly things.
I think the questions that really bother me most are...is the desire for what others have wrong because that leads to attempts to steal the possessions of others, or is it rather that such desire is wrong in and of itself? Is coveting a possession the same as coveting a child? Is it wrong to have the desire to become a parent?
Another site followed up with this strong conclusion...
"It is good to ask God to take care of the problem that is making us discontent, but to do so understanding that He may have a different plan in mind. Whether He says yes or no to our request, we need patience. God will act in His own time frame, not ours. When God says yes to our requests, He does so in order for us to be better servants for Him. That means that we should be ready to offer back to Him the gift He has given to us. He gave it to us to glorify Himself, not to satisfy our selfish desires."
Therefore, I think that Hannah was right on track when she begged God time and time again to make her a mother, but only after promising that she would give back her son to God. Although she coveted the image of herself as a mother, she understood that the image would only be granted if it was God's will.
Monday, November 23, 2009
I must admit that the holidays are the worst time for people suffering from infertility. But I'm trying to make sure that I spend the holidays being thankful, enjoying family and friends, and praising God for the wonderful blessings I do have...instead of sitting still and dwelling on what I don't have.
God said, "Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth" in Psalm 46:10.
So I'm choosing to be still...to quietly wait, to patiently listen, and to trust that this transitional period will soon me over.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Here are just a few of the verses I rely on...
And the Lord shall guide you continually and satisfy you in drought. And you shall be like a watered garden.
I command you--be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.
Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you your heart's desires.
Make me walk along the path of Your commands, for that is where my happiness is found.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths.
Look straight ahead, and fix your eyes on what lies before you.
Yet we have this assurance: Those who belong to God will live; their bodies will rise again!
Friday, November 20, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
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Monday, November 16, 2009
Zebra and Pink
My personal favorite, Black Plaid and Hot Pink
Sunday, November 15, 2009
I am letting go of my ways,
finally letting go after all these years.
And as myself is dying,
Jesus is trying to come through.
God tell me why I'm hurting.
Does this mean that I'm healing?
This painful trip I'm taking, will it be over soon?
Will it be over soon?
I have become, comfortably numb.
But You said it's not what I was, but what I am becoming,
that's how You see me.
Not who I hope to be,
but who I am.
I was afraid to walk,
but now I'm running,
to who I am becoming.
I think I have listened to this song about 10 times already. It just speaks directly to my heart and who I am becoming because of this journey.
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
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Monday, November 9, 2009
12 oz Travel Mug
6.5 oz Doubleshot Coffee Drink
9.5 oz Bottled Mocha Frappuccino
Box of Starbucks Select Key Lime Cookies
Package of Starbucks Selects White chocolate & Raspberry Cookies
2.5 oz House BlendCoffee
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
Friday, November 6, 2009
1 (3.5-ounce) package instant pistachio pudding mix
Mix all together and pour into a decorative serving dish.
Chill well and serve cold.
Makes 6 to 8 servings.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
When you are thankful, it opens the door for God to move on your behalf. That's why it says "this is God's will for you." He wants you to be close to Him and receive His strength and power by giving thanks.
Today, have the attitude that says, "God, in spite of what's happened, I choose to be grateful. I may be sick, but Father, thank You for being my healer. Thank you for giving me great friends and family." Or, "I may be struggling in my marriage, but God, thank You for being my restorer. Thank You for giving me another sunrise." As you give thanks in everything, you will see God's hand move mightily on your behalf. Before long, you'll come out of that difficulty better, stronger, and wiser than before!
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
I placed one of our little pumpkins on our birdbath and added some cornstalks to the flowerbed.
I think my little fall pilgrim is pretty cute...I wish my mums would bloom again :(
I rearranged our pumpkins and then put up a new pumpkin wall hanger.