I am a Christ follower, a happily married woman, a devoted daughter, a loyal friend, and a hard-working assistant principal. I am overjoyed to finally add proud MOMMY to our miracle baby to my profile!!
May 17: Egg Retrieval April 20. 2012: Started a new IVF cycle. December 20, 2011: I miscarried. December 19, 2011: Our BETA was only 328. The doctor suspects miscarriage and I will be going in to rule out a tubal pregnancy. December 17, 2011: I began bleeding and cramping. Called the doctor's office and would be going in on Monday for another blood test. December 12, 2011: Our BETA increased to 125. Our Christmas Miracle is right on track. December 8, 2011: POSITIVE blood test! BETA 18 November 29, 2011: We had our frozen embryo transfer. Two blastocysts transferred. August 17, 2011: The ultrasound revealed that our baby was at least a week behind in growth and the doctor shared that we should expect a miscarriage. August 15, 2011: We had our first fetal ultrasound. We didn't hear a heartbeat, our baby was behind on growth. August 1, 2011: We had another blood test and discovered that my Beta number had MORE than doubled within the past four days and it was at 601. Maybe twins??? July 28, 2011: This is a day I will NEVER forget...we are PREGNANT!!! My Beta number was at 96. July 2011: Had 11 eggs retrieved on the 14th (7 eggs fertilized, 4 made it to blastocyst stage). We had our Day 5 transfer on the 19th. June 2011: Started another round of IVF. June 2010: Had a colonscopy and discovered that the new medication has healed my colon 100%. PRAISE! May 2010: Attended an Adoption Agency Orientation, paid our application fee, and started working on our Adoption/Life Book. August 2010: Saving for one last multi-IVF cycle before pursuing adoption. August 2010: Dr. Fox removed my Endometriosis, repaired my septate uterus, and discovered a malfunction with my fallopian tubes. May 2010: Dr. Fox diagnosed me with Endometriosis and scheduled surgery in August. April 2010: Participated in a Clomid Challenge to determine if I have Endometriosis. March 2010: Our Home Study is FINALIZED and OFFICIAL! January 2010: Believing and trusting that God will bring us a miracle! November 14, 2009: Home Study for adoption! October 29, 2009: Consult with Dr. Fox to start a multi-cycle IVF program...4 IVF's!! October 7, 2009: Received another BFN after the second cycle of Clomid and IUI. September 9, 2009: Took a HPT and received a BFN! August 26, 2009: Insemination day! We had five eggs that measured 23, 20, 16, 15, and 13 mm. August 5, 2009: Had a consult with our doctor and made plans for an IUI with clomid next cycle. May 23, 2009:The DH's surgery results were GOOD! All counts are UP!! We're going to try naturally for two more cycles! May 20, 2009:Embolization follow-up appointment.May 2, 2009:Attending a fertility seminar and praying for one of the FREE IVF's!!! Update...no free IVF for us. Still trying for a natural pregnancy! February 25, 2009:Embolization surgery (4 coils) February 9, 2009:Urologist consult. November 2008:Working on raising the money for our next IVF by creating an Etsy Store and starting a Chip-In on our Be Thou a Knight blog. October 2008:Attending a fertility seminar and praying for one of the FREE IVF's!!! Update..no FREE IVF for us, but three lucky couples walked away from the seminar ecstatic! October 2008:We found out that my school district decided not to offer the new upgraded insurance. So we are back to saving for our next IVF. October 2008:Our new insurance kicks in and will cover more infertility costs.
April 2008:We received our 2nd BFN.
March 2008:We started our 2nd IVF process. We retrieved 8 eggs and transfered 5 embryos.
December 2007:We received our 1st BFN. November 2007:We started our 1st IVF process. We retrieved 8 eggs and transfered 3 embryos.
September 2007:We tried IUI for the 2nd time. February 2007:We had a fertility consultation.
December 2006:We tried IUI for the 1st time.
April 2006:We started trying to concieve.
September 2005:We got married!!!
I had a humbling experience last week at school. If you haven't read my other blog, you've got to check out this post about Challenge Day.
I was very surprised at how easy it was for me to open up about my struggles with getting pregnant and wanting a baby...whether through IVF or adoption...through the Challenge Day experience.
I heard so many of my students share their fears, their experiences (some unbelievable and tragic experiences), and their hurts. I spent the entire day just hugging students and comforting them as they shared and cried. I have to admit that I literally cried for 8 hours straight that day...I was just hurting for them and wanted to take all their pain away.
The Challenge Day experience has made me want motherhood even MORE!
Children are one of God's greatest gifts...make sure you a hug a child today and let him/her know how much you love them. You'll never know the difference it may make in their day...or their LIFE.
These days it seems as if I am running as fast as I can BUT I'm staying in the same spot...similar to what you see on cartoons---when the character's feet are going 100 miles per hour but he's not even moving???
I feel as if I am READY to become a mom, READY to share a new life with my husband, READY to wake up all hours of the night, READY to experience my child say new words, just READY.
After five years of trying, trying, trying, the answer is still no.
I feel like the sick woman in Mark, chapter 5. She had been sick for twelve years and her doctors gave her no hope of getting well or overcoming her illness. She had heard about Jesus and that He was the Great Physician. She discovered that Jesus was passing through her town and she knew that if she could only see Him, touch Him, she would be healed. But, she doubted that she would be able to make it through the crowds to get to Him. After a lot of prayer and motivation, she made the choice to take a leap of faith. She pressed through the crowd until she got just close enough to touch the edge of Jesus’ robe and instantly she was made whole again. Healed!
Jesus said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well" (Mark 5:34).
I am making the decision to rely on my faith...faith that I WILL be a mommy, that I WILL share a new life with my husband, that I WILL wake up all hours of the night, that I WILL experience hearing my child say new words, it WILL happen.
“Keep on asking and it WILL be given you; keep on seeking and you WILL find; keep on knocking reverently and the door WILL be opened to you."~Matthew 7:7
I received a devotional this morning that hit the nail the head!!!!
“For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all."
(2 Corinthians 4:17, NIV)
TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria
Are you facing a difficulty or trial that seems like it’s been lasting a long time? Today’s verse tells us that our trials are really only momentary. Compared with eternity, our troubles don’t last long at all! As you stand strong in faith during times of adversity, you are building faith and achieving eternal glory.
If you are in the middle of tough times today, look to God. The Bible says that He is the Author and Finisher of your faith. He is the One who writes faith on your heart and then develops it to completion on the inside of you. He is building strength in you, He is depositing joy in you, and He is empowering you to make it through.
Today, be encouraged because what you are facing is only temporary. Victory is on the way, and it’s closer than you think! Keep standing, keep believing, keep hoping, and keep confessing His Word because He is faithful, and He will complete what He’s started in you!
A PRAYER FOR TODAY
Heavenly Father, thank You for working Your eternal glory in me. I cast my cares on You today, knowing that my trials and troubles are temporary. Thank You for Your eternal blessing on my life today and for leading me into victory. In Jesus’ Name. Amen.