The DH and I moved into a new home in April of 2007. We found the perfect house....just what we were hoping to purchase. It was a little out of our price range, but we had decided that we could do it and we WOULD do it. That same year, we had our first IVF procedure...and I don't need to tell you the ridiculous cost for IVF. After the negative pregnancy test, we set out a plan to try again that following April. AGAIN....another ridiculous cost and AGAIN...another negative pregnancy test. So, 2009 has been a year of trying and attempting to financially get back on our feet again. I also don't need to tell you how the economy is NOT in our corner right now...so we are doing anything and everything to pick up the pieces.
As I am sure most of you feel...sometimes it just seems as if NOTHING is going your way. I have been feeling that way a LOT lately!! The DH is working himself crazy, picking up more boat listings, and trying to make some sales. I am not only working at my school, but also selling Mary Kay, creating cards for my website, and selling ads for Serious.Life Magazine. And because of all these things we are trying to do to survive...we are NOT spending enough quality time TOGETHER.
Okay...back to the present.
I woke up this morning and pulled out my daily devotional. The verse for today?
"Those who wait for the Lord, who expect, look for, and hope in Him, shall renew their strength..."~Isaiah 40.31
What are my expectations? To get out of debt, to get pregnant, to be the best wife to my husband. If I don't expect things to get better, then nothing will get better. God promises to meet my expectations in Matthew 9:29 when He said "According to your faith be it done unto you."
So there you have it....I started off 2009 giving it the title of The Year of New Beginnings. Well, now I'm giving it the title of Expecting the BEST!!
5 comments:
I hope and pray that you will be able to save lots this year. But still find time together, which can be difficult when schedules are so busy. My and my hubby are going to be really busy this summer, he will be gone for a few weekend. And I hate when it seems we have no QUALITY time together. I pray that the Lord will answer your prayers for a child of your own!
It is so hard when you just don't get the time together...we can so easily fall into a pattern on just "co-existing" and not really being married. I am going to pray that God will protect you and your hubby and create some time together for you.
Infertility is challenging enough already and unfortunately the cost of treatments just heaps on even more stress! I can definitely identify. Congrats on all the hard work you are putting in and I hope you can catch some down time with your hubby soon, too. What a great verse from Isaiah...
Good attitude!! It is sooo true that if we except things to go poorly, they will.
It's just so hard sometimes not to let it consume us!!!
Praying for you!
I can't understand how you can be working on getting out of debt but then asking complete strangers for money to complete IVF that you can't even afford. Sometimes we are so focused on what we want and not what God wants for our lives that we are blind to all other things. Do you think this might be God's way of telling you to hold off for a while and let him do the work...?
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