Friday, October 3, 2008

Dent in Our Plans--REVISED--Crown of Favor...

I sat down last night and wrote this post:

I have been extremely pumped to find out exactly what our new insurance will cover as far as fertility treatments are concerned. The last time I spoke with my Fertility Specialists, his office recommended that we change our insurance plan to the Premium package because it will cover more...more medications, IUI's, etc. So this summer I changed our policy to the Premium Plan and it only cost us bout $20 more each paycheck. The new plan was to go into effect yesterday, October 1. So being the anxious person that I am, I called my Fertility Specialists and asked that they call my insurance company and find out exactly what all my insurance will cover now. I was hoping to do a few IUI's in the meantime (might as well if they're free) until we save up enough money to try IVF again. So I get a call back from the benefits department at the doctor's office and she tells me that my plan has NOT changed?!?!? I was sharing this information with my secretary as I was walking out of school today and she informed me that our Teachers' Union and School Board decided not to offer this plan to educators in our district this year. And they decided to just stick with the plan that I already had!!! Boy did this put a dent in our plans.

I'm pretty bummed to hear this news. I just hope and pray God has plans of His own :)

As you can tell, I was in a very low and negative place last night. So what did I do? I sat down and watched another episode of Joel Osteen. His message this week was "Detoxing Your Mind." Joel spoke about making a decision to stop dwelling on negative thoughts. The enemy tries to plant negative thoughts and images into our minds. But instead we should fight back and medidate on what God says. Proverbs 4:23 reads "Above all else, guard your heart, for it affects everything you do." We should choose to have positive thoughts, positive attitudes, and be full of faith. God created us into talented, creative, blessed, beautiful, strong, and courageous human beings. He gave us a crown of favor and we should rejoice in it. No more worrying, bitterness, or negativity for me...I will wear my crown proudly and know the best has yet to come!


Krysta said...

I'm so sorry to hear the bad news about your insurance. It's crazy they didn't let the people know that had signed up for it! You've got a great attitude about it though. This is just part of the plan!

Laura Ann said...

Lianna ~ I am so sorry to hear this. I have been praying hard for all of this to work out and for you to conceive before year end. Hey, go have a great time this weekend ~ try not to even think about it and RELAX. When you return home we can start looking (you, me and Tedra) for some studies that are in your area, within driving distance of you or maybe even here in Houston. Lets just try and see what we never know. Stay positive, I know it is so hard. I must admit that I am frustrated for you at this point. I want it to happen for you and David so badly and it is what you deserve.

Keep the Faith!

Heather said...

I am so sorry to hear this news. I know you must be discouraged...but I also know that GOD is so much more awesome and bigger than insurance or medicines or procedures! He can do this and HE WILL. I believe it! I'm praying for you! Hope you guys have a blessed weekend!

Kendra said...

Hi Lianna,
I was directed to your blog by Chapters. I will be praying for you!!!!! The God we serve is a God of miracles! He has a perfect plan for us and He (thankfully) is not surprised by any of these things that catch us off guard.
May He bless you richly for your positive attitude and faith...and in the mean time, know that you are being prayed for all the way in Portland Oregon!!

Heather said...

I remember so well going through the same insurance frustrations. It's ashame that we pay so much for health insurance only to find out that certain things are not covered. I definitely knew down to the penny how much I had used of my alloted dollar amount & how much I had left to spend. (Obsessed? Just a little!!!!) Hang in there. Blessings will come your way, probably when you least expect it!