Sunday, September 26, 2010

I've Failed...

After what seems like pregnancy test number 1,328,342....I've failed.


Still the answer is no.


Lord, please give me the strength to continue on. Give me the determination to look forward to next month. And please Lord, remind me that You never would have placed this desire in my heart if You weren't going to fulfill it..

24 comments:

Jenna said...

Just found your blog today, praying for you... I have also traveled this journey, my husband and I tried for over 2 years, lost a baby at 15 weeks. Today we are 32 weeks pregnant with a baby girl. I will be praying for you, you will get your miracle baby!

Meg said...
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waiting and wishing said...

I'm praying for you, Lianna. I understand the disappointment,and find your faith to be so inspiring.

Jenn said...

You have NOT failed...that implies you are in control of the situation and you are not. God IS IN CONTROL and he doesn't fail...or make mistakes.

Bobbi said...

Beautiful prayer. :) Hang in there.

Rebecca Jo said...

Reading this, I let out a audible "Ohhhh" ... it made me sad for you...

Sending you hugs!!!

N and M said...

I continue to pray for you.

You have not failed.
There is a message here.
Don't miss it.
You know what to do now.
You've known for a while.
The message is clear.
You have not failed, you've been show the way.

I'm here if you need anything.

Niki

Lori said...

Lianna, you are in my prayers sweet girl. I will pray the Lord will bless you with a baby of your own real soon!!!

Heather Allen said...

Praying peace will fill your heart.

Traci said...

My thoughts & prayers are with you.

Meg said...

Ps. 18
"But in my distress I cried out to the LORD; yes, I prayed to my God for help. He heard me from his sanctuary; my cry reached HIS ears. Then at your command, O LORD, at the blast of your breath, the bottom of the sea could be seen, and the foundations of the earth were laid bare. He reached down from heaven and rescued me; he drew me out of deep waters."
He led me to a place of safety; He rescued me because He delights in me. The LORD rewarded me for doing right; He compensated me because of my innocence. For I have kept the ways of the LORD; I have not turned from my God to follow evil.
As for God, His way is perfect. All the LORD's promises prove true. He is a shield for all who look to him for protection. For who is God except the LORD? Who but our God is a solid rock? God arms me with strength; He has made my way safe!
He makes me as surefooted as a deer, leading me safely along the mountain heights. He prepares me for battle; He strengthens me to draw a bow of bronze. You have given me the shield of your salvation. Your right hand supports me; Your gentleness has made me great."

Ashley said...

You haven't failed- God has big plans for your family! Trust Him!

Britney said...

You can't fail in this area. To say that you failed means that you are saying your body is greater than God's ability to work in it. And that is not true! I struggle with feeling like a "failure" in this area, too, so I understand. However, this is simply Satan attacking you. You are, pure and simple, do not have the right to say you failed, just like when you succeed in this area, you cannot take the glory for it.

belle said...

you haven't failed my friend.... jenn is right, you are not in control, He is..... sigh. i don't understand, but i DO know that HE is always perfect, especially when i don't get it, don't understand, stand there with my mouth hanging open screaming "why?".... that is when He does His best work.... sending you (((((hugs)))))

Jennifer said...

I am praying for you sweet friend. And you haven't failed! God is in control and He has BIG and wonderful plans for y'all. Many (((hugs)))!!!

Kendra said...

Lianna- I believe your day WILL come. I do.

I am praying it is soon, and that the Lord will comfort you as you wait.

Megan said...

(((HUGS))) I'm so sorry!!! But you haven't failed even though it feels that way. The answer just hasn't been 'yes' yet. I SO wish it was your time! Lots of prayers for you right now!!!

Alyson said...

I'm so very sorry. Just know that I'm praying for you, and believing with you that God placed in you the desire to be a mommy because He IS going to fulfill it!! Love you!

Chea said...

Thinking of you! I'm praying for you. We are in this journey together my friend.

Lori said...

I'm sorry...I know that feeling of failure (and 1,328,342 tests!) and it's hard not to feel as if you haven't failed. It seems so easy for so many and it's so hard to understand how we really (even with technology) are not in control of the knitting of precious life within our wombs (or not...).

Praying for you in the next cycle and for peace in all that comes with it...

Lori said...

I'm sorry...I know that feeling of failure (and 1,328,342 tests!) and it's hard not to feel as if you haven't failed. It seems so easy for so many and it's so hard to understand how we really (even with technology) are not in control of the knitting of precious life within our wombs (or not...).

Praying for you in the next cycle and for peace in all that comes with it...

Lauren said...

Keep holding on to his promises!!! Love you!!!!

HomemadeMother said...

First of all, you have not failed as the title of this blog post says. You are trying to become a mother, and sometimes it takes time and lots of patience. The process is so mystifying and challenging, even for people who get pregnant relatively easily. When it does happen – have absolute faith that it will! – the little person you’ll have will bring you such joy and you’ll know all the heartache and frustration were worth it.

Tillie said...

*huge huge hugs* please don't give up hope. It's taken me 2 years to realize that God has a plan...we are all waiting for that perfect child from him. Please don't feel like a failure...*hugs*