Growing Our Own Garden: When It Rains...

May 17: Egg Retrieval
April 20. 2012: Started a new IVF cycle.
December 20, 2011: I miscarried.
December 19, 2011: Our BETA was only 328. The doctor suspects miscarriage and I will be going in to rule out a tubal pregnancy.
December 17, 2011: I began bleeding and cramping. Called the doctor's office and would be going in on Monday for another blood test.
December 12, 2011: Our BETA increased to 125. Our Christmas Miracle is right on track.
December 8, 2011: POSITIVE blood test! BETA 18
November 29, 2011: We had our frozen embryo transfer. Two blastocysts transferred.
August 17, 2011: The ultrasound revealed that our baby was at least a week behind in growth and the doctor shared that we should expect a miscarriage.
August 15, 2011: We had our first fetal ultrasound. We didn't hear a heartbeat, our baby was behind on growth.
August 1, 2011: We had another blood test and discovered that my Beta number had MORE than doubled within the past four days and it was at 601. Maybe twins???
July 28, 2011: This is a day I will NEVER forget...we are PREGNANT!!! My Beta number was at 96.
July 2011: Had 11 eggs retrieved on the 14th (7 eggs fertilized, 4 made it to blastocyst stage). We had our Day 5 transfer on the 19th.
June 2011: Started another round of IVF.
June 2010: Had a colonscopy and discovered that the new medication has healed my colon 100%. PRAISE!
May 2010: Attended an Adoption Agency Orientation, paid our application fee, and started working on our Adoption/Life Book.
August 2010: Saving for one last multi-IVF cycle before pursuing adoption.
August 2010: Dr. Fox removed my Endometriosis, repaired my septate uterus, and discovered a malfunction with my fallopian tubes.
May 2010: Dr. Fox diagnosed me with Endometriosis and scheduled surgery in August.
April 2010: Participated in a Clomid Challenge to determine if I have Endometriosis.
March 2010: Our Home Study is FINALIZED and OFFICIAL!
January 2010: Believing and trusting that God will bring us a miracle!
November 14, 2009: Home Study for adoption!
October 29, 2009: Consult with Dr. Fox to start a multi-cycle IVF program...4 IVF's!!
October 7, 2009: Received another BFN after the second cycle of Clomid and IUI.
September 9, 2009: Took a HPT and received a BFN!
August 26, 2009: Insemination day! We had five eggs that measured 23, 20, 16, 15, and 13 mm.
August 5, 2009: Had a consult with our doctor and made plans for an IUI with clomid next cycle.
May 23, 2009: The DH's surgery results were GOOD! All counts are UP!! We're going to try naturally for two more cycles!
May 20, 2009: Embolization follow-up appointment. May 2, 2009: Attending a fertility seminar and praying for one of the FREE IVF's!!! Update...no free IVF for us. Still trying for a natural pregnancy!
February 25, 2009: Embolization surgery (4 coils)
February 9, 2009: Urologist consult.
November 2008: Working on raising the money for our next IVF by creating an Etsy Store and starting a Chip-In on our Be Thou a Knight blog.
October 2008: Attending a fertility seminar and praying for one of the FREE IVF's!!! Update..no FREE IVF for us, but three lucky couples walked away from the seminar ecstatic!
October 2008: We found out that my school district decided not to offer the new upgraded insurance. So we are back to saving for our next IVF.
October 2008: Our new insurance kicks in and will cover more infertility costs.
April 2008: We received our 2nd BFN.
March 2008: We started our 2nd IVF process. We retrieved 8 eggs and transfered 5 embryos.
December 2007: We received our 1st BFN.
November 2007: We started our 1st IVF process. We retrieved 8 eggs and transfered 3 embryos.
September 2007: We tried IUI for the 2nd time.
February 2007: We had a fertility consultation.
December 2006: We tried IUI for the 1st time.
April 2006: We started trying to concieve.
September 2005: We got married!!!

Monday, August 25, 2008

When It Rains...

it POURS!!! I had a really rough day yesterday...the dreaded BABY shower :( Please don't get me wrong and please don't think I'm being insensitive...to tell you the truth, I think I'm TOO sensitive--especially for other people. Our cousin's son and and girlfriend are expecting a precious little baby girl in September. They had the cutest baby shower I've ever seen...every single thing was PINK (which happens to be my favorite color). But the longer I sat there and watched her open all the cute little outfits, bows, and blankets, the more it just made my heart ache. I am SO SO SO happy for them and I know how excited they are, but to be quite honest...I want that for us so bad that sometimes it just plain hurts. So, I came home, cried to the DH, let him baby me and remind me that our time IS coming and how exciting it will be WHEN it happens.

Having a yucky day yesterday, caused me to reflect on this entire year. We have been through a rough 2008...to say the least. It started out with two BFN's, back to back, which were so hard to stomach and just a blow to our family plans. The economy has taken a nose-dive and with gas prices so high, it has seriously affected the DH's business. It also seems as if EVERYTHING is happening right now and we just haven't had time to stop and breathe...wedding showers, baby showers, weddings, birthday parties, the new school year, Tropical Storm Fay, etcetera, etcetera...

All of this craziness made me sit down and think about how thankful I am for a DH that loves me and a marriage that can withstand all these rough patches. The old adage, "What doesn't kill me (us), makes me (us) stronger" surely holds true.

I heard a song called When the Rain Comes by Third Day. As I listened to the words, it really made me reflect on how much the DH and I have leaned on one another and how much we really NEED one another, especially through these rough times. Although we aren't able to stop the rain from coming...we can hold one another until it subsides.

I love you honey...and I know we'll get through 2008 AND experience many blessings in the years to come!

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