I have to be honest and say that I had a rough day yesterday. I am not sure exactly what set me off, I just think it was one of "those" days and it was hard for me to control my emotions.
I have never felt that this journey we are experiencing was a mistake. I think there is a reason why God wants us to travel this road and have a longing for a child. How sweet the victory will be when His plan is revealed!!!
But I really felt as if life was so unfair yesterday. I just kept thinking about just how MUCH I really want to be a mother, how I want to see my DH holding our precious baby, and how our parents will spoil this baby rotten! I know deep down that God has the perfect plan with the perfect baby picked out just for us, but it's so hard waiting for that plan to be revealed.
It was a low of desperation and frustration and I am just TIRED! I literallly had to sit in my car for a good 30 minutes and compose myself before I went into work. But, I did. And I had a busy day. And it got better as the day went on.
But I am just being honest when I say that this is the hardest journey I have EVER traveled!!