Sunday, June 7, 2009

Light is Bursting In...

I am really working hard this weekend on NOT being overwhelmed with impatience and sadness that our blessing of a baby has not yet come to be. I think a lot of the reason I have been down this weekend is because of the weather. It has been raining all weekend and for some reason it always puts me in a depressing mood.

I have cried over the littlest things this weekend...

  • My soap opera had a very sad "baby" storyline that finally came to an end this past week, and I seriously cried and cried and cried.
  • Although I have enjoyed working in our church's nursery, I sat down and cried yesterday because I just did NOT want to work in the nursery this weekend. So I traded my duty with a friend.
  • A family member received a letter that just upset her SO much. I seriously cried my eyes out when I read it.

These are just a few of the things that really put me in one of those moods this weekend. You know what moods I am talking about...A "why me?" mood, a "when will it be my turn" mood, or an "it's never going to happen" mood. And through all of these feelings and moods, it's still raining outside. The dark clouds seem to be dwelling over my house this weekend.

I know better though...I know that "according to my faith, it will be done unto me."~Matthew 9:29. I know that God wants to release His favor like a flood over me. Maybe all of this rain is His way of washing away these sad thoughts that are trying to overcome my thoughts this weekend.

I have been praying this verse over and over this weekend..."When the enemy comes, in like a flood the Spirit of God will lift up a barrier."~ Isaiah 59:19

I know that our time is coming...I just KNOW it. I am expecting a tidal wave of God's goodness.

And, as He would have it, as I wrap up this post, the sun has started to show it's face today. Which reminds me that "when the darkness overtakes the Godly, light will come bursting in."~ Psalm 112:4.


4 comments:

Stuart and Sarah Creamer said...

I've been feeling the say way this past week/weekend! I just have to remember that God knows when my time will come...and I pray so desperately that it will be sooner than later!

amy (metz) walker said...

I've definitely had that feeling before! I'm so sorry!

noahandlylasmommi said...

(((hugs))) you are definintly not the only one having those feelings this past week. I will be praying for you.

CJ said...

Lianna,
I'm so sorry. You just seem so cute and sweet. I'm sorry you're hurting. I'm not sure when you wrote this post....but I'm sure "the clouds have rolled away" and the sunshine is back to give you hope. Your faith and smile inspire me. Thank you!