Thanks to all of you for the sweet comments and prayers. David and I have needed them more than I can say.
I have spent the last two days at home, although I really should be at work keeping busy. But the other administrators at my school encouraged me to take these past two days, collect my thoughts, and spend time with David. So I will be back at work on Monday, for the first day of school.
I spoke with our doctor's office and have scheduled another ultrasound on Monday. If the baby has not shown growth and a heartbeat is still not there, we are going to proceed with a D & C. For some reason, just typing the letters D & C makes my heart hurt tremendously, but the thought of experiencing a miscarriage and reliving the hurt of losing our first baby is even worse. I am still hoping and praying that this baby will show some growth...I just can't help but want this so badly. So we will know more on Monday.
I can say that God has been blessing me over and over again these past two days with words of wisdom, hope, and showing me that I can overcome this.
My Rick Warren devotional said this yesterday...
“For men are not cast off by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love.” Lamentations 3:31-32
Things in your life were going so smoothly, and then the next minute it’s as if a storm hit your life, and now all your plans have been destroyed. What do you do?
This devotional referenced Lamentations 3 and encouraged me to read verses 22-26. They read:
22 The faithful love of the Lord never ends! His mercies never cease.
23 Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!”
25 The Lord is good to those who depend on him, to those who search for him.
26 So it is good to wait quietly for salvation from the Lord.
My Joel Osteen devotional said this today....
Don’t ever get stuck in the rut of thinking, “I’ll never change...that’s just the way I am.” No, the Bible says that the Spirit of God aids us in our weakness. He gives us strength to overcome. He empowers us to live as more than conquerors in this life.
Is there something you want to change in your life today? If you’ve received Jesus as your Lord and Savior, then start declaring, “I am a new creation in Christ! I am empowered to overcome! I am equipped to walk in the new, abundant life the Lord has in store for me!”
With His help...I will overcome!