Friday, August 19, 2011


Thanks to all of you for the sweet comments and prayers. David and I have needed them more than I can say.

 I have spent the last two days at home, although I really should be at work keeping busy. But the other administrators at my school encouraged me to take these past two days, collect my thoughts, and spend time with David. So I will be back at work on Monday, for the first day of school.

I spoke with our doctor's office and have scheduled another ultrasound on Monday. If the baby has not shown growth and a heartbeat is still not there, we are going to proceed with a D & C. For some reason, just typing the letters D & C makes my heart hurt tremendously, but the thought of experiencing a miscarriage and reliving the hurt of losing our first baby is even worse. I am still hoping and praying that this baby will show some growth...I just can't help but want this so badly. So we will know more on Monday.

I can say that God has been blessing me over and over again these past two days with words of wisdom, hope, and showing me that I can overcome this.

My Rick Warren devotional said this yesterday...

“For men are not cast off by the Lord forever. Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love.” Lamentations 3:31-32
Things in your life were going so smoothly, and then the next minute it’s as if a storm hit your life, and now all your plans have been destroyed. What do you do?

This devotional referenced Lamentations  3 and encouraged me to read verses 22-26. They read:
22 The faithful love of the Lord never ends! His mercies never cease.

23 Great is his faithfulness; his mercies begin afresh each morning.
24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in him!”
25 The Lord is good to those who depend on him, to those who search for him.
26 So it is good to wait quietly for salvation from the Lord.

My Joel Osteen devotional said this today....

Don’t ever get stuck in the rut of thinking, “I’ll never change...that’s just the way I am.” No, the Bible says that the Spirit of God aids us in our weakness. He gives us strength to overcome. He empowers us to live as more than conquerors in this life.
Is there something you want to change in your life today? If you’ve received Jesus as your Lord and Savior, then start declaring, “I am a new creation in Christ! I am empowered to overcome! I am equipped to walk in the new, abundant life the Lord has in store for me!”

With His help...I will overcome!


Bobbi said...

Oh my goodness, Lianna! Oh. My. Goodness. I cannot believe all that you've been keeping to yourself until yesterday. I wish your post could've reflected a wonderful ultrasound with a healthy peanut, but your doctor is right, this abnormality was nothing you did. It'd your body's natural way of recognizing he/she was not made for this earth. But, my gosh, you can get pregnant! You can do it! And, I have a feeling you will be just like me...and have a successful FET!!! I have never met you, but through your devotion to God, your abundant love for Him in all things good and bad, you have demonstrated to all of us where your heart lies. With God. And He will never ever forsake you. He will provide. Keep the faith. Keep the prayers.

Amanda said...

Oh Lianna!! You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so very sorry that you are going through this. Please let me know if there is anything at all that I can do for you.

Anonymous said...

Just letting you know I am sending a big, comforting hug your way and will continue to pray for you and your sweet family. Lots of love!!! xx

Jenny said...

Lianna, I have been reading your blog for a long time, and following your journey. My husband and I tried for over a year to get pregnant, and when we finally did, I had a miscarriage, and ended up with a D&C. To say it was a horrible time in our lives, is a ridiculous understatement. Finally, nearly three years after starting our TTC journey, we became pregnant again, and I'm due in one week from tomorrow!! I just wanted you to know, although I don't know you, I feel your grief, and I'm praying for you.

Jess said...

Sending HUGS and prayers your way.

meg said...

I believe the same -- you (and your body) will overcome. Been thinking of you a lot lately and thanks for keeping a bunch of strangers who care about your family posted. :)

Kianna said...

sooo good this is just what i need thank you :)

Jordyn's Nana said...

Lianna and David,

We have not been told any of this and we are so sorry for what you are going through. If there is anything we can do please let us know. Please know that you are in our prayers and thoughts.

Heather said...


I am soooo very sorry! I had absolutely no idea of the post on thursday. My hearts aches for you!!! I so understand this heartache and my prayers are with you and your sweet husband.

Blessings my sweet friend and I will be constantly in prayer for you as you endure this next week.

Jenna said...

You guys are in our thoughts and prayers. I am so, so sorry for this heartache sweet Lianna. Big hugs.