Tuesday, December 15, 2009

The Land of Hope...

In 2007 we attempted our first round of IVF. We had good results from the medication, were able to retrieve 8 eggs, and had five fertilized embryos. We went back to the doctor and were overjoyed to transfer three great embryos.

We were over the moon and thrilled beyond belief about the miracle we would celebrate that Christmas. Little did we know that the Christmas of 2007 would be one of our worst holidays ever. On Christmas morning I took a pregnancy test and received a negative result. It took everything we had to put smiles on our faces and join our family in opening gifts that morning. But...we did have a glimmer of hope because I was scheduled to have my blood test the day after Christmas...and we knew that although the home pregnancy test came back negative, we could still be pregnant. Unfortunately, our blood test result was a negative and we were devastated.

Now fastforward two years...

We have spent the past two years seeing more doctors, taking new medications, trying different procedures....and why? Because we have hope. Hope that our suffering will result in the biggest reward we could ever imagine. And although it's Christmas 2009 and we will be celebrating the birth of Christ without our own miracle baby, we've pitched our tent in the Land of Hope (Acts 2:26).

9 comments:

2 little Boys said...

We too camped out tents in the land of God's hope during our battle, and ongoing battle, with infertility. We are praying for your victory over infertility this Christmas season.

Daily laying it at the Master's feet!
Laura Ann

Meg said...

Lianna, I am always amazed by the people the Lord introduces me to on the internet. I have read your story and I am touched by your longing for your baby. I do not know your exact pain but I know sorrow and I know what it is like to cling to hope because that is all you have, I know how to live and take one day at a time. May our wonderful Jehovah the Great Giver of all good gifts grant you the desire of your heart. Have a Blessed Christmas IN Him, Meg

newwife said...

Lianna,
I have been reading your blog for awhile now and just want you to know that not only do I completely understand how hard this holiday season is, as my husband and I are going through a similar journey with IF and trying to conceive, but know that your words are a blessing to so many and give others hope and a reason to be positive, which is so, so difficult on this journey! Thank you for being you and sharing your ups and downs with us!!

Jenn said...

I needed that today. I need to live in the Land of Hope while dwelling in the world of the hopeless.

The Estes Family said...

Your time is coming!! Keep the faith!!

noahandlylasmommi said...

(((hugs))) I cannot even say I know what you are going through because I havent done IVF but I am praying for you. God is going to bless you with a baby. Soon I hope! Hang in there!

waiting and wishing said...

Hope... it is one of the only things that makes this journey bearable. The promise of a new tomorrow makes the hard days a little easier!

Stuart and Sarah Creamer said...

Amen Sister! I know every emotion you are feeling...just keep holding on to that HOPE and NEVER let it go!!!

Night Owl Mama said...

Prayers to you that your hopes and prayers and dreams are answered

Hugs Sweetie